I was at work tonight..thinking about a lot of stuff. I started thinking about leaving for Fiji and I'm pretty sure I had some kind of anxiety attack. I freaked out and thought to myself "what the fuck are you doing!?" It was the first time I had a second thought about going. I hope this is normal. Before I left for Europe in '05 I kind of felt like this, but that was only three months. I don't know, perhaps this is the hardest part of the peace corps, leaving. I'm not really worried about being away from Ashley, and I want to do this more than anything, so where do the jitters come from? Hmm..maybe I need a hug.
On another note I'm picking up a new pair of chakos this week and i'm pretty excited about it. It's nearly Spring in NH and I can't wait to not be wearing smelly muddy boots everywhere. Hopefully with my tax return, security deposit on my apartment and a months worth of paychecks I will be able to afford all the shit I need to go to Fiji. Does the Peace Corps supply the beach balls?
Monday, March 17, 2008
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